Second thoughts

Sometimes I'll get an idea into my head, and I'll take some initiative and carry it a small distance .... and then I'll have second thoughts. These generally involve an idea being not worth my time, or too complicated to follow any further, or the idea being too stressful to undertake, and then they involve me quitting and doing something else. Chess is a good example of such an idea, where I stopped playing simply because being better at chess would require me to actually study the game, and I felt as though all that would lead to is being better at chess, nothing really life-applicable. Video games are another example of an abandoned pursuit, although that was moreso because I thought girls wouldn't be into them. The reasons for which I stopped playing video games back in the day were, I thought, fairly foolish, but in hindsight I'm glad I put them away because I'm not sure I would have discovered a hobby like cycling so easily if I were still playing. Strictly PC games, my parents never did agree to buying a console for the house and I'm glad they didn't.

Blogging is another idea about which I recently had second thoughts on a trip to Thailand. I was in Thailand for two weeks, and before I left, I thought to myself, " I should really write about this trip, I should blog about it every day, as much as I can". Then I actually went on the trip, and I found myself impossibly tired by the end of every day. Not as tired as I was in Europe, that was a whole different level of pain and fatigue, but tired enough that, by the time we all got back to the hotel rooms, all I really wanted to do was sleep or "pass out" as my friends often phrase it.

I entertained the idea of keeping a journal again, or typing stuff into a Word document, or keeping an audio or video journal. Then I knocked each of those ideas down because a written journal would mean slow writing versus fast typing, an audio/video journal would be completely unedited and nobody would ever be able to review it, least of all me, and a written Word document .... it's not like anybody actually sees this blog anyway, and when it came down to this versus a written Word document, I just didn't want this to be another thing on which I gave up. I also do enjoy the thought that people in China might actually be reading this, so I'd rather keep this up.

So I'm actually not going to write about Thailand, not for now anyway. I might do a "Recollections" piece on it at some point, but basically the plan for now is to write every day or as close to it as possible. When something interesting happens during the day, I'll write about that. When nothing interesting happens during the day, I'll let my mind cycle through memories until I find a "Recollections"-worthy memory and I'll write about that. For now, it's noteworthy to say that, since the last time I wrote in this journal, a fair bit has changed. I've met more women, I've done more cycling (I commute to work by bicycle now), I've made a more firm commitment to ameliorate my diet (which shall be tested tomorrow because the program always gives free lunch on Wednesdays, and lunch is usually nutritionally quite hopeless), but I'm still a fat-ass and I still don't have a girlfriend. Not to worry though, all good things take time. Great things, though ... great things happen all at once.